ATZILUTH, MY BELOVED HOME
ATZILUTH, MY RESTING PLACE
ATZILUTH, MY FINAL DESTINATION

The Beloved is a war-torn veteran, who is looking for a new peaceful life far from the battlefield. The war has torn him so much that he became loner, rather paranoid and develops a rare obsession about data…an effect called Combat Fatigue. He try so hard to cure this with a little effect because…..sadly….the war always looking for him

The Beloved is a pacifist; always try to avoid conflict with anyone or anything. If everything can be solved with a diplomatic way, he prefers to do it rather than an open frontal way. He always tried to maintain balance & his neutrality. However, this doesn’t mean he can’t fight…he just don’t want to. The Beloved can be your most truthful friend who will die for you & your cause and The Beloved can be your worst enemy who will make sure you suffer & die smoothly.

Some says The Beloved were frightening. This is due his nature as a shell for something he doesn’t want to reveal. He always says that his purpose of life is to seal something, and he is quite ready to be called back (that how he described death). He also says that he just waiting his visa to be signed.

The Beloved was a family man. He will protect and care his beloved one to the death even beyond it because, for him that is what remains from his belonging. He says we can buy house, we can acquired wealth, we can takeover a nation, but a good happy family is a gift from God and to maintain it is one hell of a job.

The Beloved now were looking for someone who will succeed him.He just wants to pass his knowledge.He himself feel that he is growing too old and need to settle down continuing life as it is.His days are now counted although he never knows when it ends.

The Beloved was a commando unit,able to work alone on any multiple tasks without the help of others.The world has taught him to grow up like that, to trust no one,to be always perfectionist,to set a high standard in everything,and to maintain “I can do it by myself” kind of attitude.Sadly,all of his ability comes with a terrible price, his lack of social and interpersonal skill.He like to be alone and stay in the shadow,watching people passing by.He keep his grief, pain and suffering to himself Nobody know what happened to him until suddenly they see him lying on a hospital bed, with a bloody arms and said “I’m okay,never been to better than this” or until suddenly he collapse in a bench with a pain in his face but he keep smiling & said “don’t worry,just an error in my system,it’ll better soon”.

The Beloved lack of social and interpersonal skill cost him greatly in many social situations.That’s why he spend most of his time alone in a solitary place.He decided to be alone not because he hate people,but because he not used to people or to life inside a group.He always had been an outsider for most of his life until now.He live alone and he die alone.People for him is a new experience.

The Beloved's wars were far from over although most of the people said that the war for his generation is already over.He himself was also tired from this war but sadly,he can’t quit now because he still has mission to do as a sweeper for his generation.And he just want to atone from his past sin,that maybe there is a salvation out there for his soul
   

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    Monday, March 26, 2007
    Death to all

    Many human says, “Life is cheap, easy as it goes….but in truth, I think death is cheap. If we want to think about it, to bring life or to maintain, keeping or obtain life is tougher that its look. It took thousand and thousand of anything we have to keep something living, alive well being. For an instance, we have to had electricity if we want to keep our home lamp bright, we need some battery to keep our MP3 Player function properly, we even need fuel and dynamo to keep our car working properly……… so much for it every time and every hour of our life fighting for living. Health insurance, car insurance and many thing we spend just to make sure our life secure……. To make sure we are living prosperously happily ever after.

     

    Death in other hand was different. The word death itself was an enemy to most of our ear. It is strictly forbidden, perilous, and scary word to say, they even can make people think you are insane if you keep repeating that word and say that you love it so much. One thing for sure is death is cheaper than life. You do not need special occasion to taste death; you do not even need an expense to get it. There too many ways to taste death, many more ways to get it and can happen in any time, anywhere to anyone.

     

    If we want to think about it, death can be happen through anything. We can be dead via old ages, accident, killed, or suicide. The method of how to be death and the instrument of death expanded into some knowledge to us, human. It is amazing that the human even think to make a beautiful & glorious death ever happen to them, even developed many thing that can make a certain death for sure.

     

    So just like Agatha Christie’s Novel, we can achieve death by so many ways, from car accident, motor accident, cut by sword, gunshot, bomb explosions, cyanide, mustard gas, bio-chemical gas, nuclear attack and even by stepping on a banana peels…….. and then we realize that death are more cheaper than we ever think.

     

    So…

     

    What do you think?

    Are you ready if the time comes to face the death? Are you started to enjoy the harsh of your life, realizing that death is just a millimeter away for your life? Are you started to think death is a release from all your hardship and you thinking to suicide? Do you afraid of death because you realize how powerless you are in front of it? or you afraid because you don’t know were you going after it……….


    Posted at 3/26/2007 11:47:37 am by The Beloved Lucifiel

     

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