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The Beloved Lucifiel
Bimo was one of the remaining Young Diviner in UI, with Tarot Card as his main weapon, and still considered as one of the best although he always said, “there always a sky above” or “I just doing the job I am capable of”

Bimo also a war-torn veteran, who is looking for a new peaceful life far from the battlefield. The war has torn him so much that he became loner, rather paranoid and develops a rare obsession about data…an effect called Combat Fatigue. He try so hard to cure this with a little effect because…..sadly….the war always looking for him

Bimo just want to be an ordinary human although what left now from his humanity is a trace of his brain and a memory of a woman who is crying when she seeing his eyes. He still doesn’t know why that memory existed but he grew to care, protect and love that woman. He always mentions that woman as “The Saint Phenomena” or “The Girl with A Shining Bright Eyes & Beautiful Smile”. He doesn’t want anything from that woman, he just make sure that woman always get the best.

Bimo is a pacifist; always try to avoid conflict with anyone or anything. If everything can be solved with a diplomatic way, he prefers to do it rather than an open frontal way. He always tried to maintain balance & his neutrality. However, this doesn’t mean he can’t fight…he just don’t want to. Some report indicate that when forced to fight, he will became your worst nightmare because Bimo reported having a Berserk System, capable of letting loose his true without any feeling anymore (& he hate & loved it want it happen). Bimo can be your most truthful friend who will die for you & your cause and Bimo can be your worst enemy who will make sure you suffer & die smoothly.

Some says Bimo were frightening. This is due his nature as a shell for something he doesn’t want to reveal. He always says that his purpose of life is to seal something, and he is quite ready to be called back (that how he described death). He also says that he just waiting his visa to be signed.

Bimo was a family man. He will protect and care his beloved one to the death even beyond it because, for him that is what remains from his belonging. He says we can buy house, we can acquired wealth, we can takeover a nation, but a good happy family is a gift from God and to maintain it is one hell of a job.

Bimo now were looking for someone who will succeed him.He just wants to pass his knowledge.He himself feel that he is growing too old and need to settle down continuing life as it is.His days are now counted although he never knows when it ends.

Bimo was a commando unit,able to work alone on any multiple tasks without the help of others.The world has taught him to grow up like that, to trust no one,to be always perfectionist,to set a high standard in everything,and to maintain “I can do it by myself” kind of attitude.Sadly,all of his ability comes with a terrible price, his lack of social and interpersonal skill.He like to be alone and stay in the shadow,watching people passing by.He keep his grief, pain and suffering to himself Nobody know what happened to him until suddenly they see him lying on a hospital bed, with a bloody arms and said “I’m okay,never been to better than this” or until suddenly he collapse in a bench with a pain in his face but he keep smiling & said “don’t worry,just an error in my system,it’ll better soon”.

Bimo lack of social and interpersonal skill cost him greatly in many social situations.That’s why he spend most of his time alone in a solitary place.He decided to be alone not because he hate people,but because he not used to people or to life inside a group.He always had been an outsider for most of his life until now.He live alone and he die alone.People for him is a new experience.

Bimo's wars were far from over although most of the people said that the war for his generation is already over.He himself was also tired from this war but sadly,he can’t quit now because he still has mission to do as a sweeper for his generation.And he just want to atone from his past sin,that maybe there is a salvation out there for his soul
   

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    Thursday, July 21, 2005
    Another Enlightment……..or ………………Another Trend That Soon Fade Away?

    There a nice film I see lately on the theatre. The film called “Gie” based from Soe Hok Gie diary entitled “Catatan Harian Seorang Demonstran” (for those who don’t know Soe Hok Gie, he is one of the leaders of the demonstration against Soekarno’s regime back in the 60’s. He is a student from University of Indonesia, Faculty of Letter [now Faculty of Cultural Science], and Majoring in History…………..and if you are an Indonesian and doesn’t know about this………. where have you been for all the time of your life??? You should at least dig your history material and find out about it…except you are an Indonesian barbarian nomadic tribe).

     

    I were delighted when I see this film, the filmmaker really got the soul of the time and space…..they really got the scent of Indonesia, especially Jakarta in the 60’s. I enjoy much of the show until finally I realize something….something rather strange, not about the movie, not about the filmmaker, not about the actor (despises that actor was a famous rising star young actor name Nicholas Saputra……….my friend say that he still cannot break away from the symbolical of Rangga, his early character in the famous movie AADC / Ada Apa Dengan Cinta ….he looking good in “Gie” thanks to the filmmaker that really great about building the scent……..but enough of the correction, let my friend comment it later on)…….. but more about the audience. I felt quite surprised to see many of the audience were in fact teenager about 13 to 19 with the most new trendy look……….or usually called AGJ or AGATA (Anak Gaul Jakarta/ Jakarta Spoiled Kid)……I quite surprise to see them coming to the movie, with the republish “Catatan Harian Seorang Demonstran” book at their hand to see their nation’s chapter of dark history………………….

     

    But then again, I ask myself…why this AGJ interested suddenly in this thing….a thing that they usually prefer to ignore………(well many AGJ were rather bad in the historical lesson)………..why this happen?

     

    Then I remember the question of my friend when she become a moderator for “Gie” movies campaign in my campus…….it’s not a coincidence to say that the filmmaker were corporate with The Historical Club from University of Indonesia, Faculty of Cultural Science, History Department…..my friend ask this to the audience…….”do you come here to see and learn about Soe Hok Gie?? Or just want to see Nicholas Saputra and ask for his autograph??”………………you can guess the answer for yourself, most of the audience were agree that they want to see Nicholas Saputra and the rest of the actor rather than learn and see Soe Hok Gie……..it’s a shame thought……..

     

    Now….as I dive deeper and deeper to the AGJ data, I was sad to see that they don’t even knew what they’re seeing or read. They just see “Gie” not because they interested in him or want to know more about his spirit…….they just see it because they want to see the cast of the movie. The same goes with the book, they want to buy it just to show everyone that they have the book…whether or not they understand the real meaning stored in the book. Everything just a trend for they to follow……what saddens me more.


    When I entered the theatre again to learn more about it, I hear people talking…”eh Nico keren yah …Nico gitu loh….blablabla…etc” (Nico were soooo cool…….blablabla…etc). And the conversation goes on after they came out from the theatre…… “Eh….udah punya bukunya blon??.........udah  tuh…………rada boring sih isinya, but anyway gambar Nico di situ keren………lagian kalo ndak punya kan gw bisa dianggap  ndak ngikutin………..blablablabla….etc” (sorry it’s hard for me to translated most of it)……...

     

    I was silent when I hear it……..I can’t speak anything……..then I pass by some magazines stall, and I saw how the media promote the film greatly……..when I looked inside, I see how they forgot about the spirit of Soe Hok Gie. Rather than speaking of him, they lok toward the commercial side, and of course the mainstream side, that is of course more about the cast or so. Most of the media especially the youth magazine were only post the stuff of the film and the cast……rather than the true meaning and the pain of the film….the true meaning and the pain that Soe Hok Gie felt when he wrote his diary.

     

    I don’t blame Riri Reza & Mira Lesmana, the filmmaker for all of this…….they were gambling to make this movie, gambling with their life at stake because some material of this film were forbidden to show in the public, save to make. The PKI Flag (PKI stand for Partai Komunis Indonesia or Indonesia Communist Party), the Genjer-Genjer song…that were forbidden this day by the law….and of course by the public authority such as the police, the MUI, and so on…and need more than a letter of permission to get the material done, because the material maker itself were afraid to make it…lest that they were judge as communist and got caught.

     

    I don’t blame the cast either…….they work their way hard on this film……to get the aura of the dark period of Indonesia need more than a struggle to life……and I as the audience, appreciate what they work so hard……..they make me remember the war I once felt on the early years of my campus…..my years generation were the last to face the war to change this nation.

     

    I just………….sad to see how ignorance this generation has become….the so called AGJ generation……….I was relieved to see how they not even care about their history….save to care their nation…they forgot that their happiness were a result of many sacrifice done by a people like Soe Hok Gie………..they happy state were in fact a goal that people like Soe Hok Gie trying to make……so the future children of Indonesia don’t suffer like Soe Hok Gie suffer………………………..I just see the AGJ generation only care about their cloth, their trend, and of course they shape….a shape soon vanish when the time comes.

     

     

    I ended this with one quote by an anonymous historian that says……”The people that forgot and ignore their nation history were lesser than a barbaric people”


    Posted at 7/21/2005 10:53:02 pm by The Beloved Lucifiel

    Ezma Merican
    February 15, 2006   04:39 PM PST
     
    I just heard about soe hok gie and after i've read the synopsis about the movie, it makes me wanted to know him more and more. Dia seorang pemuda yang begitu berani dan di saat dia memperjuangkan cita-citanya dia berani berkorban berhabis-habisan. I respect him and I am so glad to know him even though through his movie.
    Kapan this movie di screenkan di MALAYSIA?

    congrat's to all the productions crew this movie give me a very good impact to be a better person.
    DIAN
    January 14, 2006   05:32 PM PST
     
    Di mana boleh dptkan buku 'AKU' - Sumandjaya....?
    bimo
    August 4, 2005   09:31 PM PDT
     
    amin.......emoga mereka seperti itu.....thx rina
    infamous lurino
    August 1, 2005   02:32 PM PDT
     
    hmpfh... materialisme!
    rina
    July 31, 2005   11:12 PM PDT
     
    Sorry to bug in.... interesting thoughts u got there. Gue boleh ngasi pendapat gaK? boleh ya? ya? ya?
    I think the same thing happened waktu jaman AADC. para AGJ AGJ itu juga berlomba-lomba beli AKU-nya Sumandjaya kan? mereka bener2 ngikutin trend untuk tau2 suka dan ngerti sastra. i think it's a good thing. whether mereka ntar bakal ngedalemin dan suka sastra beneren, menurut gw itu nomer 2. Yang penting udah ada awareness dulu sama yang namanya sastra, dan untuk kasus gie, sama yang namanya sejarah. Kalo bukan karena film Gie, mungkin anak SMA gak ada tau Soe hok gie itu orang atau bukan. hehehe
    Kalo gw sih gak sedih, gw malah seneng...gw yakin diantara 10 AGJ yang nonton gie, seenggaknya ada 9 orang yang gak cuma nonton nico doang, ada 7 orang yang bener2 ngerti alur ceritanya, dan mungkin ada 5 orang yang akhirnya pengen tau lebih banyak tentang sejarah gie itu sendiri.
    fERDI:)
    July 31, 2005   02:40 AM PDT
     
    btw click on my link; I've quoted on your post in my blog...
     

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